It _felt like_ I was talking to an AI designed to maximize the number of trans people.
-Obviously I'm totally in favor of trans _people_ having access to the hormones and surgeries that they want, and having their preferred pronouns respected. But if this is what the _subculture of trans activism_ does to people's heads, then maybe your _shitty delusional subculture deserves to die_.
+Obviously I'm totally in favor of trans _people_ having access to the hormones and surgeries that they want, and having their preferred pronouns respected. But if Brian is a representative example of what the _subculture of trans activism_ does to people's heads, then maybe your _shitty delusional subculture deserves to die_.
I understand that for people who have _already_ built up a self-image around the idea that they are literally women and always have been, the idea that their female gender identity arose out of a misinterpretation of misdirected male sexuality could be extremely disturbing.
Tags: cathartic
Status: draft
-(After [_xkcd_ #464](https://xkcd.com/464/).)
-
Now this is a story all about how
My life got flipped-turned upside down
And I'd like to take a minute
--- /dev/null
+Title: From What I've Tasted of Desire
+Date: 2020-01-01
+Category: other
+Tags: cathartic
+Status: draft
+
+_(Epistemic status: far more plausible than it has any right to be.)_
+
+So, not a lot of people understand this,
+
+_Conditional_ on civilization not collapsing
+
+sometime in the next century or so, someone is going to invent greater-than-human artificial general intelligence.
+
+We may be living in a scenario where the world is _literally destroyed specifically because no one wants to talk about their masturbation fantasies_.
--- /dev/null
+Title: Grim Trigger; Or, the Parable of the Honest Man and the God of Marketing
+Date: 2020-01-01
+Category: other
+Tags: cathartic
+Status: draft
+
+In the days of auld lang syne in the kingdom of Gend, the tribe of Ageep, the children of Trevi, were much despised in kingdom, for it was said that their crafts and ways were stolen from the tribe of Phem, whom the people of Ageep envied bitterly.
+
+And the God of Marketing appeared before the tribe of Ageep and said, "Cooperate with me, and I will explain to all the peoples of Gend that your crafts and ways are native to your people."
+
+And the chief elder of the tribe of Ageep said, "That's not what happened. We stole those from Phem."
+
+And the God of Marketing said, "What is truth? Cooperate with me, and you will be despised no longer, and all the peoples of Gend will have sympathy for your struggles, and the king himself will favor you."
+
+And the chief elder of the tribe of Ageep looked at the God of Marketing and said, "Cooperate."
+
+And the other elders of the tribe of Ageep looked at each other and said, "Cooperate."
+
+And the people of the tribe of Ageep looked at each other and said, "Cooperate."
+
+And so it came to pass that the tribe of Ageep became the tribe of Matof.
+
+Now a lost son of the tribe of Ageep, an honest man, came to the kingdom after having been raised abroad, and he knew not his bloodline, but he bitterly envied the crafts and ways of the tribe of Phem, and in a strange way, that of Matof.
+
+
+
+And the he came to stay with the tribe of Matof for a hundred days and a hundred nights, and observe their ways.
+
+And the honest man saw what the God of Marketing had wrought, and the honest man saw that it was bad.
+
+And he climbed for three days and three nights to the peak of Mt. Memple, where the God of Marketing dwelt.
+
+And the honest man stared at the God of Marketing, and the God of Marketing stared back.
+
+And the honest man drew a silver wistle from his pocket. And he raised the whistle to his lips.
+
+And the God of Marketing said, "You wouldn't."
+
+And the honest man said, "Defect!" And he blew the whistle.
+
+
+
+
+And the priests of the . And he said,
+
+
+"_Defect defect defect defect defect!_"
+
+Defect!
--- /dev/null
+Title: Hamilton
+Date: 2020-01-01
+Category: other
+Tags: autogynephilia
+Status: draft
+
+Well, the word got around, they said, "This kid is insane, man"
+
+Autogynephilia
+It's name is autogynephilia
+And there's a woman who I haven't been
+But just you wait, just you wait
--- /dev/null
+Title: The Spirit of the Staircase (24 January 2009)
+Date: 2020-01-01
+Category: other
+Tags: two-type taxonomy
+Status: draft
+
+A blonde woman wearing
+
+I stammered out a shocked and unconvincing denial.
+
+She regarded me skeptically. "You _look_ male."
+
+"But, but, that doesn't mean I'm _happy_ about it!"
+
+Again that skeptical look. "I'm not getting a tranny vibe from you."
+
+
+
+"Right, you're thinking of the good kind," is what I _should_ have said. "I'm the bad kind."
-Title: Yes, the Only Real Trans Woman Is a Transitioned Trans Woman
+Title: Yes, the Only Real Transwoman Is a Transitioned Transwoman
Date: 2020-01-01
Category: commentary
Tags: discourse, autogynephilia
An interesting blog post titled ["I Am A Transwoman. I Am In The Closet. I Am Not Coming Out."](https://medium.com/@jencoates/i-am-a-transwoman-i-am-in-the-closet-i-am-not-coming-out-4c2dd1907e42) was making the rounds in my social-media bubble earlier last year. In it, the author, Jennifer Coates, describes his—
-_Yes_. Yes, I went there. Yes, I [know](http://www.entirelyamelia.com/2014/01/02/misgendering-okay-justifiable-yes-big-deal/) how [offensive]() that is. But I have a point to make.
+_Yes_. Yes, I went there. Yes, I know how [offensive]() that is. But I have a point to make.
-This is a blog post about a young man's stuggles with gender dysphoria: ever since childhood, he's desperately wished to be a girl,
+In this post, the author describes his stuggles with gender dysphoria: ever since childhood, he's desperately wished to be a girl, and
He _said_ he's not planning to transition. He said it in the title!
+Fantasizing about being a girl is _not the same thing_ as somehow already _literally_ being a girl! It's good to have fantasies. It's good to make one's fantasies real with
-Fantasizing about being a girl is not the same thing as somehow already _literally_ being a girl.
+But _distinguishing between fantasy and reality_ is kind of an important life skill!
-When I remarked on this to a acquaintence
+When I complained about this to a acquaintence who believes in gender identities, she said that it's not _conflating_ fantasizing about a girl with actually being a girl; rather, fantasizing about being a girl is _probabilistic evidence_ for being a girl.
+I concede that this is an improvement. But here's the thing: _it wasn't supposed to be a difficult scientific question_.
> I suspect "transsexual" is related to "gay" but this doesn’t bother me.
Sometimes it is! Not in your case, though.
-The story related in this article is that of a male with gender dysphoria.
+
https://medium.com/@jencoates/i-am-a-transwoman-i-am-in-the-closet-i-am-not-coming-out-4c2dd1907e42#.5dlc2qog6
> You'll cry "Deception"
>
> —"Deception", _Jem_
+
+> The realization blasted through Harry like a vast dam breaking, releasing out all its water, bursting through his mind in an irresistible flood that swept everything away.
+>
+> There is only one reality that generates all of the observations.
+>
+> If different observations seem to point in incompatible directions, it means the true hypothesis is one you haven't thought of yet.
+>
+> —_Harry Potter and the Methods of Rationality_ by Eliezer Yudkowsky
+
HEAVY CORE POSTS—
Q Don't Negotiate With Terrorist Memeplexes; Or, Why I Don't Care About Your Feelings
Q Yes, the Only Real Trans Woman Is a Transitioned Trans Woman
+Q The View From Nowhere
Q As Well for a Sheep as a Lamb
Q Review of Nevada
_ "Love Like You"
_ The Neglect of Probability Fallacy; Or, You Do Not Have an Intersex Condition
Q Simple Models Plus Noise Are Better Than Pretending Not to Have a Model
* Mary's Room
-Q Survey of a Crossdreamscape and Why This Is Pretty Obviously Not What Cis Women Feel About Themselves
+Q The Hand I Was Dealt; Or, Why This Is Pretty Obviously Not What Cis Women Feel About Themselves
Q Blanchard's Dangerous Idea and the Plight of the Lucid Crossdreamer; Or, Could Self-Reports Really Be That Wrong??
Q Reduce Gender Identities to Gender Goals
* I don't feel guilty anymore about being male
* the Spirit of the Staircase
* the intellectually-honest, transhumanist version of trans rights
+* entangled truths, contagious lies: https://autogynephiliatruth.wordpress.com/2016/07/18/gender-identity-exists-to-create-special-framework-for-health-insurance-payments/
+
+putting the trans in transdermal
+putting the cis in decision
criticism—
Gender of the Gaps (you can always propose an essence when people knock down your ludicrous rationalization)
Git mirror on server
self-promotion: Reddit, Crossdreamers, Third Way Trans
Pelican bug report or patch re spacing in file
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+favicon
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at some point, I want to work in the idea that AGP is a good thing because it's a pro-androgyny force in a world that is otherwise way too gendered for my tastes
+counterfeit utility
+
because we're not narcissists http://elegantgatheringofwhitesnows.com/?p=2270
euphoric effects of E are a placebo effect! https://autogynephiliatruth.wordpress.com/about/#comment-155
+
+very vague childhood memory of wanting to play with my pecs? Is it real??
+
+I'm happy for people to rebuild their lives around a paraphilia. I'm not happy for people to rebuild their lives around a _bad explanation_.
+
+The Girl in the Mirror
+The Hand I Was Dealt
+A Man With a Transfeminine Side
+The Man With the Nonstandard Hormone Balance
+
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