Sunday redemption hypercycle 3: poking at "A Hill"

This is barely any new words, but the point is to keep the timer
running and me being engaged with editing the file. If I just spend
enough interminable hours engaging with editing the file, eventually
the memoir will be complete.

diff --git a/content/drafts/a-hill-of-validity-in-defense-of-meaning.md b/content/drafts/a-hill-of-validity-in-defense-of-meaning.md
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@@ -212,14 +212,22 @@ However weird I must have seemed, I have trouble imagining what anyone else tell
 
 But (as I told the LCSW) I would _know_ that I was cherry-picking. HSTS-taxon boys are identified as effiminate _by others_. [You know it when you see it, even when you're ideologically prohibited from _knowing_ that you know.](TODO: write "Gaydar Jamming" and linky) That's—not me. I [don't even _want_ that to be me](/2021/May/sexual-dimorphism-in-the-sequences-in-relation-to-my-gender-problems/#if-i-have-to-choose). I definitely have a gender _thing_, but I have a pretty detailed model of what I think the thing actually is in the real physical universe, and my model doesn't _fit_ in the ever-so-compassionate and -equitable ontology of "gender identity", which presupposes that what's going on when I report _wishing_ I were female is the _same thing_ as what's going on with actual women who (objectively correctly) report being female. [I don't think it's the same thing](TODO: linky autogenderphilia reply?), and I think you'd have to be [crazy or a liar](https://www.lesswrong.com/posts/y4bkJTtG3s5d6v36k/stupidity-and-dishonesty-explain-each-other-away) to say it's plausibly the same thing.
 
-Another consequence of my Blanchardian enlightenment is that around this time (maybe [specifically on 7 October 2016](http://zackmdavis.net/blog/2016/10/late-onset/)) 
+Another consequence of my Blanchardian enlightenment is that around this time was my [break with progressive morality](http://zackmdavis.net/blog/2016/10/late-onset/). I had never really been progressive, as such.
 
+I was registered to vote as a Libertarian, owing to a teenage 
 
+with Ayn Rand and the greater libertarian blogosphere.
 
+But there was still a cultural assumption, 
+
+http://zackmdavis.net/blog/2017/03/brand-rust/
+
+
+(I remember that in senior year of high school in 'aught-five, on Coming Out Day, my physics teacher said  that she was coming out as a Republican. Even then, I got the joke, but I didn't realize the implications.)
 
 
 [TODO: another thing that happened about this time was my break with progressive morality; I had never been progressive along all dimensions (Ayn Rand, registered libertarian), but antisexism was very important to me, and even after I had mostly unwound the dysfunctional parts of that, I still thought of myself as on the Blue team
-http://zackmdavis.net/blog/2017/03/brand-rust/ ]
+ ]
 
 [TODO: October 2016: another thing that happened around this time I wrote Eliezer to ask about the conflict with "Changing Emotions" and made a Cheerful Price offer to talk about it https://www.lesswrong.com/posts/MzKKi7niyEqkBPnyu/your-cheerful-price (shut up, we're not a cult) ]
 

diff --git a/notes/notes.txt b/notes/notes.txt
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@@ -3119,3 +3119,5 @@ Is there a third subtype? https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/44-dr-susan-brad
 https://cutdowntree.substack.com/p/gender-identity-isnt-real
 > My friend's response was that it didn't matter
 [compare Ozy on "Lies to Cis People"]
+
+GPT just finished a completion with `_Crossposted to [crossdreamers.com](https://crossdreamers.com/2022/06/05/ideological-evolution-from-gender-stereotypes-to-gaydar/)._`! It knows about Jack Molay (but probably doesn't know about me)!