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diff --git a/content/drafts/if-clarity-seems-like-death-to-them.md b/content/drafts/if-clarity-seems-like-death-to-them.md
index a1c984f..de75d6e 100644 (file)
--- a/content/drafts/if-clarity-seems-like-death-to-them.md
+++ b/content/drafts/if-clarity-seems-like-death-to-them.md
@@ -91,15 +91,11 @@ My frustration bubbled out into follow-up emails:
 
 > I'm also still pretty _angry_ about how your response to my "I believed our own propaganda" complaint is (my possibly-unfair paraphrase) "what you call 'propaganda' was all in your head; we were never _actually_ going to do the unrestricted truthseeking thing when it was politically inconvenient." But ... no! **I _didn't_ just make up the propaganda! The hyperlinks still work! I didn't imagine them! They were real! You can still click on them:** ["A Sense That More Is Possible"](https://www.lesswrong.com/posts/Nu3wa6npK4Ry66vFp/a-sense-that-more-is-possible), ["Raising the Sanity Waterline"](https://www.lesswrong.com/posts/XqmjdBKa4ZaXJtNmf/raising-the-sanity-waterline)
 
-[TODO: summarize smooth over cheerful-price bit, with a history footnote—
+I added:
 
 > Can you please _acknowledge that I didn't just make this up?_ Happy to pay you $200 for a reply to this email within the next 72 hours
 
-> But, it's kind of bad that I'm thirty-one years old and haven't figured out how to be less emotionally needy/demanding; feeling a little bit less frame-locked now; let's talk in a few months (but offer in email-before-last is still open because rescinding it would be dishonorable)
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-Anna said she didn't want to receive cheerful price offers from me anymore; previously, she had regarded my custom of throwing money at people to get what I wanted as good-faith libertarianism between consenting adults, but now she was afraid that if she accepted, it would be portrayed in some future Ben Hoffman essay as an instance of her _using_ me. She agreed that someone could have gotten the ideals I had gotten out of "A Sense That More Is Possible", "Raising the Sanity Waterline", _&c._, but there was also evidence from that time pointing the other way (_e.g._, ["Politics Is the Mind-Killer"](https://www.lesswrong.com/posts/9weLK2AJ9JEt2Tt8f/politics-is-the-mind-killer)), that it shouldn't be surprising if people steered clear of controversy.
+Anna said she didn't want to receive [cheerful price](https://www.lesswrong.com/posts/MzKKi7niyEqkBPnyu/your-cheerful-price) offers from me anymore; previously, she had regarded my custom of throwing money at people to get what I wanted as good-faith libertarianism between consenting adults, but now she was afraid that if she accepted, it would be portrayed in some future Ben Hoffman essay as an instance of her _using_ me. She agreed that someone could have gotten the ideals I had gotten out of "A Sense That More Is Possible", "Raising the Sanity Waterline", _&c._, but there was also evidence from that time pointing the other way (_e.g._, ["Politics Is the Mind-Killer"](https://www.lesswrong.com/posts/9weLK2AJ9JEt2Tt8f/politics-is-the-mind-killer)), that it shouldn't be surprising if people steered clear of controversy.
 
 I replied: but when forming the original let's-be-apolitical vision in 2008, we did not anticipate that _whether or not I should cut my dick off_ would _become_ a political issue. That was _new evidence_ about whether the original vision was wise! I wasn't trying to do politics with my idiosyncratic special interest; I was trying to _think seriously_ about the most important thing in my life and only do the minimum amount of politics necessary to protect my ability to think. If 2019-era "rationalists" were going to commit a trivial epistemology mistake that interfered with my ability to think seriously about the most important thing in my life, but couldn't correct the mistake even after it was pointed out, then the 2019-era "rationalists" were _worse than useless_ to me personally. This probably didn't matter causally (I wasn't an AI researcher, therefore I didn't matter), but it might matter timelessly (if I was part of a reference class that includes AI researchers).
 

diff --git a/notes/memoir-sections.md b/notes/memoir-sections.md
index a452bad..1387c5c 100644 (file)
--- a/notes/memoir-sections.md
+++ b/notes/memoir-sections.md
@@ -54,6 +54,8 @@ _ mention "Darkest Timeline" and Skyrms somewhere
 _ footnote explaining quibbles? (the first time I tried to write this, I hesitated, not sure if necessary)
 _ "it was the same thing here"—most readers are not going to understand what I see as the obvious analogy
 _ first mention of Jack G. should introduce him properly
+_ link to protest flyer
+_ weird that Kelsey thought the issue was that we were trying to get Yudkowsky to make a statement, which he never does; from our perspective, the issue was that he _had_ made a statement, and it was wrong
 
 pt. 4 edit tier—
 _ mention Nick Bostrom email scandal (and his not appearing on the one-sentence CAIS statement)

diff --git a/notes/memoir_wordcounts.csv b/notes/memoir_wordcounts.csv
index 66222ef..281ca23 100644 (file)
--- a/notes/memoir_wordcounts.csv
+++ b/notes/memoir_wordcounts.csv
@@ -538,4 +538,8 @@
 10/06/2023,119136,-4436\r
 10/07/2023,118644,-492\r
 10/08/2023,118644,0\r
-10/09/2023,,\r
+10/09/2023,118774,130\r
+10/10/2023,118601,-173\r
+10/11/2023,118601,0\r
+10/12/2023,118932,331\r
+10/13/2023,,\r

diff --git a/notes/wordcounts.txt b/notes/wordcounts.txt
index 358744c..db67e6d 100644 (file)
--- a/notes/wordcounts.txt
+++ b/notes/wordcounts.txt
@@ -53,7 +53,7 @@ $ wc content/drafts/blanchards-dangerous-idea-and-the-plight-of-the-lucid-crossd
   2447  73940 501961 total
 
 words per year—
-2023 (through 1 Aug): 61800 (total); 45719 (UUT), 16132 (LW)
+2023 (through 12 Oct): 66500 (total); 46200 (UUT), 20300 (LW)
 2022: 31900 (total); 29600 (UUT),  2300 (LW),   100 (aAL)
 2021: 43300 (total); 21600 (UUT), 21700 (LW),   400 (aAL)
 2020: 42400 (total); 23900 (UUT), 18500 (LW),  1800 (aAL)