"Hormones Reboot: Spironotacular!"

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+Title: Hormones Reboot: Spironotacular!
+Date: 2017-03-27
+Category: other
+Tags: HRT diary, not-a-transition
+
+> _Not what teacher said to do  
+> Making dreams come true  
+> Living tissue, warm flesh, weird science!_  
+>
+> —"Weird Science" by Oingo Boingo
+
+![coffee and Spiro]({filename}/images/coffee_and_spiro.jpg)
+
+So, I took off my estradiol patch during [my recent nervous breakdown](http://unremediatedgender.space/2017/Mar/fresh-princess/). I still [don't think](http://unremediatedgender.space/2017/Jan/hormones-day-33/) it had much, if any, real effect. (In particular, the stress and sleep-deprevation by themselves seem quite sufficient to explain the breakdown without attributing any of it to a nonstandard hormone balance, especially given how similar it felt to my 2013 nervous breakdown.)
+ 
+Again, everyone had _told_ me that just-estrogen without an anti-androgen doesn't do anything, but that didn't seem absolutely locked down from me from what I had read ("Anti-Androgens May Not Be Necessary", according to [a lit review](https://srconstantin.wordpress.com/2016/10/06/cross-sex-hormone-therapy-female-hormones/) that I may or may not have had a causal role in commissioning), and remember: from my perspective, if [everyone is lying](http://unremediatedgender.space/2017/Jan/im-sick-of-being-lied-to/) about the etiology, maybe they got the dosages wrong, too! So I don't regret being conservative for the initial experiment. (The _starter_ in "starter dose" is code-switching for _placebo_!)
+
+Anyway, during the aftermath of my release from prison/kindergarten, my father got me to promise not to restart the drug experiment for a month, and I _care_ about keeping my promises—particularly so in the aftermath of a psychotic quasi-religious experience with heavy themes of reducing morality to game theory (transparent agents who tell the truth and keep their promises are easier to cooperate with and therefore form more powerful coalitions). That would have been on 20 February, so it is in keeping with my word that I didn't get the medical establishment to resupply me with more estradiol patches and—this time—the standard anti-androgen spironolactone, until 24 March. (I should also have an order of oral estrogen and Spiro coming from [an Indian supplier](https://www.alldaychemist.com/) in the post, if for no other reason than that my recent imprisonment taught me that I need to practice being less [authoritarian-submissive](https://www.edge.org/response-detail/23876) towards the medical establishment.)
+
+It was raining in "Portland" that day. I was eager to try my first dose of Spiro before even getting home, and walked to a nearby outpost of a hegemonic coffeeshop chain to do so. The paper bag from the pharmacy nearly dissolved in the rain, and I ended up having to carry the supplies in my jacked pockets on the way home.
+
+And now—soon I may have greater apprehension of what it means to have a more female-like hormone balance! Wish me luck!

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