From: M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake Date: Thu, 26 Jan 2023 06:41:22 +0000 (-0800) Subject: check in X-Git-Url: http://534655.efjtl6rk.asia/source?a=commitdiff_plain;h=6cd4d8b5f461c5d9ba200683227b1800a9184d69;p=Ultimately_Untrue_Thought.git check in --- diff --git a/content/drafts/blanchards-dangerous-idea-and-the-plight-of-the-lucid-crossdreamer.md b/content/drafts/blanchards-dangerous-idea-and-the-plight-of-the-lucid-crossdreamer.md index 8cbbc0a..66d0bd0 100644 --- a/content/drafts/blanchards-dangerous-idea-and-the-plight-of-the-lucid-crossdreamer.md +++ b/content/drafts/blanchards-dangerous-idea-and-the-plight-of-the-lucid-crossdreamer.md @@ -45,7 +45,7 @@ For background, "Wilhelm" was a fellow old-time _Less Wrong_-er who I had met in Relevantly, "Wilhelm" [was also autogynephilic](https://www.lesswrong.com/posts/QZs4vkC7cbyjL9XA9/changing-emotions?commentId=93u4sgeARSHfPkqPN) (and aware of it, under that name). The first time I had ever gone crossdressing in public was at a drag event with him in 2010. -As it happened, I had just messaged him a few days earlier, on 22 March 2016, for the first time in four and a half years. (My opening message: "Ray Blanchard's Twitter feed is kind of disappointing, but I'm not sure what I was expecting".) I confided to him that I was seeing an escort on Saturday the twenty-sixth[^twenty-sixth] because the dating market was looking pretty hopeless, I had more money than I knew what to do with, and three female friends agreed that it was not unethical.[^unethical] +As it happened, I had just messaged him a few days earlier, on 22 March 2016, for the first time in four and a half years. (My opening message: "Ray Blanchard's Twitter feed is kind of disappointing, but I'm not sure what I was expecting".) I confided to him that I was seeing an escort on Saturday the twenty-sixth[^twenty-sixth] because the dating market was looking pretty hopeless, I had more money than I knew what to do with, and three female friends agreed that it was not unethical.[^unethical] [^internship]: "Internship" is in scare quotes, because the Singularity Institute at the time was not the kind of organization that offered formal _internships_; what I mean is that there was a house in Santa Clara where a handful of people were trying to do Singularity-relevant work, and I was allowed to sleep in the garage and also try to do work, without being paid. diff --git a/notes/memoir-sections.md b/notes/memoir-sections.md index 3ee59db..7b059a4 100644 --- a/notes/memoir-sections.md +++ b/notes/memoir-sections.md @@ -1,8 +1,12 @@ marked TODO blocks— +- Boston [pt. 5] +_ I wish Richard Feynman was trans [pt. 2] - social justice and defying threats [pt. 5] - Jessica's experience at MIRI and CfAR [pt. 5] _ last email and not bothering him [pt. 5] -_ New York visit [pt. 5] +_ autogenderphilia (in-line section) [pt. 4] +_ New York [pt. 5] +_ reaction to Ziz [pt. 4] _ "Unnatural Categories Are Optimized for Deception" [pt. 4] _ the Death With Dignity era [pt. 5] _ scuffle on "Yes Requires the Possibility" [pt. 4] @@ -27,11 +31,9 @@ _ lead-in to Sept. 2021 Twitter altercation [pt. 5] _ regrets, wasted time, conclusion [pt. 5] - "Agreeing with Stalin" recap intro [pt. 5] - not even blocked— _ Re: on legitimacy and the entrepreneur; or, continuing the attempt to spread my sociopathic awakening onto Scott [pt. 2 somewhere] _ running away to Burlingame; Hamilton tickets -_ I wish Richard Feynman was trans _ "Even our pollution is beneficial" _ include Wilhelm "Gender Czar" conversation? [pt. 2] @@ -42,7 +44,7 @@ _ Michael Vassar and the Theory of Optimal Gossip _ psychiatric disaster _ the story of my Feb. 2017 Facebook crusade [pt. 2] _ the story of my Feb./Apr. 2017 recent madness [pt. 2] -_ reaction to Ziz + New (bad) time estimate: @@ -62,6 +64,9 @@ it was actually "wander onto the AGI mailing list wanting to build a really big With internet available— +_ Whining-Based Communities +_ Feynman strip club anecdote?? And reference in "In the Ruins" +_ When did I buy the Susan Pinker book? Probably 2008 (confirm date of "Those are magnets") _ Ione "good things don't cancel out bad things" _ escort photo comment _ love to know some positive integer number of plans @@ -170,6 +175,7 @@ _ less afraid of hurting O. _ secret posse member pointing out that it worked better because it was Oli _ update "karma at press time" _ better explain "lie inflation" ambiguity +_ Facing Reality _ backlink condemning Emperor Norton Conspiracy _ backlink AGP in women post (time permitting) in pt. 2 "don't think it's the same thing" _ backlink "I've decided to drop the pseudonym" to pen name drop post @@ -177,6 +183,7 @@ _ backlink (/2022/TODO/blanchards-dangerous-idea-and-the-plight-of-the-lucid-cro _ backlink "I again refer to" Happy Price _ backlink "(again) whether he accepted the Cheerful Price" _ backlink "alter the beacon" +_ backlink only seen an escort once before (#confided-to-wilhelm) terms to explain on first mention— _ Valinor @@ -2085,3 +2092,21 @@ https://www.glowfic.com/replies/1735044#reply-1735044 > my suspicion is that not many sadists in dath ilan know what they are and Civilization tries to prevent us from finding out, because dath ilan does not have masochists. https://www.truthdig.com/dig/nick-bostrom-longtermism-and-the-eternal-return-of-eugenics/ + +https://graymirror.substack.com/p/the-boomer-map +> The lower class _wants_ an upper class it can genuinely look up to. The feeling that Harvard has gone insane is like realizing that Mom and Dad are both on heroin. + +25 January 2022: I hesitated for a long time before leaving a comment about Cicero on the Alexander/Yudkowsky dialogue, shows I'm still culty (calculating whether I'm allowed to speak on a post he coauthored; I linked "EA should blurt") + +J.D.P. on rationalism's failure +https://extropian.net/notice/ARvZ3pimn8JQIe4yGG + +In one of my notebooks from 2008, I had written, "" + +Friend of the blog Ninety-Three— +> It's like admiring a society that solves crime by having secret police shoot all bad people in the head. What the fuck!? I suddenly have empathy for the experience of seeing your cult defiled. If I got Isekaied onto dath ilan I would _become a terrorist_. + +(Terrorism wouldn't work) + +Sep 27 text to "Chaya"— +In theory, the bad influence could go both ways: first, successful playdate, then I mention to A. afterwards (not before) that C. is actually a boy and I think it's crazy everyone is pretending otherwise (which remark is out of their censorship jurisdiction); then if C. wants a repeat with new friend (far from guaranteed, but plausible), it's not your fault if A. leaks information of her own will ... diff --git a/notes/memoir_wordcounts.csv b/notes/memoir_wordcounts.csv index 7d4636d..6eecfd1 100644 --- a/notes/memoir_wordcounts.csv +++ b/notes/memoir_wordcounts.csv @@ -302,4 +302,6 @@ 01/21/2023,80707 01/22/2023,80807 01/23/2023,81043 -01/24/2023, \ No newline at end of file +01/24/2023,82333 +01/25/2023,82854 +01/26/2023, \ No newline at end of file