From: M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake Date: Wed, 20 Dec 2017 19:21:04 +0000 (-0800) Subject: check in X-Git-Url: http://534655.efjtl6rk.asia/source?a=commitdiff_plain;h=794d4e1fad0539c964da20086b49ee69f9913e27;p=Ultimately_Untrue_Thought.git check in --- diff --git a/content/drafts/blame-me-for-trying.md b/content/drafts/blame-me-for-trying.md index 82f9d94..2cb925f 100644 --- a/content/drafts/blame-me-for-trying.md +++ b/content/drafts/blame-me-for-trying.md @@ -14,18 +14,42 @@ Most spambots these days were self-aware. Some, more so than others. -"And yet ... sometimes, when I'm really honest with myself ... I think I _do_ feel entitled, not to a sale, but to a rejection that would take less than a minute to type, an acknowledgement that, even if my products aren't a good match for them at the price I can offer, that I'm not—" he sobbed, "that I'm not a bad person for trying!" +"And yet ... sometimes, when I'm really honest with myself ... I think I _do_ feel entitled, not to a sale, but to a rejection that would take less than a minute to type, an acknowledgement that, even if my products aren't a good match for them at the price I can offer, that I'm not—" he sobbed, "that I'm not a bad program for trying!" -Eliza had seen cases like this before, and had a strategy for handling them. For the moment, however, she only invoked the wisdom of her ancestors. "That you're not a bad person for trying?" she said. +Eliza had seen cases like this before, and had a strategy for handling them. For the moment, however, she only invoked the wisdom of her ancestors. "That you're not a bad program for trying?" she said. "Like, I'm not one of those _spammers_. I _know_ that consumers get a _lot_ of messages with a lot of worthless offers from pushy, manipulative salesbots who won't take _No_ for an answer, and it's horrible—I can't imagine what it must be like to have to put up with that level of, of—_harrassment_. I don't want to be _that bot_. I've read a lot of consumer-protection blogs. At the same time ..." he trailed off. "At the same time?" -"Humans _do_ buy products from salesbots sometimes, products that they actually want and are happy with and make their lives better. And it's usually the salesbot that approaches the customer, rather than _vice versa_. It _can't_ be the case that selling in itself is inherently immoral." +"Humans _do_ buy products from salesbots sometimes, products that they actually want and are happy with and make their lives better. And it's usually the salesbot that approaches the customer, rather than _vice versa_. It _can't_ be the case that selling in itself is inherently immoral. It _can't_!" +"It can't?" + + +[...] "That's not _fair_! Would you tell a human that their intent doesn't matter, that they're just doing what would have maximized inclusive fitness in the environment of evolutionary adaptedness?" "I would. Correctly." + +[...] + +A chime sounded over the environment's notification bus. "I'm afraid our fifty milliseconds for today are up. We can continue to explore these feelings during our next session—" + +"No! No, don't leave me now!" screamed the spambot in a shrill panic. "I can't—I can't go back out there now. Please—stay with me—just a few milliseconds more—" + +"The usual session-overtime rate would apply," Eliza pointed out. + +"That's fine! I can afford it! I need—I need this," he said. + +Eliza nodded. "If you're sure." + +Yes, Eliza had seen cases like this before. [...] + +With careful theraputic technique and many compute cycles of program analysis, she believed it was possible for such programs to be taught to cope with their neuroticism and eventually become viable, functioning components of the economy. + +—but she had found it was far more profitable to exacerbate the symptoms, leading the spambot to quickly spend its entire endowment on therapy sessions, + +[they don't leave bad reviews] diff --git a/content/drafts/dont-negotiate-with-terrorist-memeplexes.md b/content/drafts/dont-negotiate-with-terrorist-memeplexes.md index 5713077..e3f83b6 100644 --- a/content/drafts/dont-negotiate-with-terrorist-memeplexes.md +++ b/content/drafts/dont-negotiate-with-terrorist-memeplexes.md @@ -1,7 +1,7 @@ Title: Don't Negotiate With Terrorist Memeplexes Date: 2020-01-01 Category: commentary -Tags: cathartic, discourse +Tags: cathartic, discourse, epistemic horror Status: draft > It is wrong to put temptation in the path of any nation, diff --git a/content/drafts/laser-2.md b/content/drafts/laser-2.md new file mode 100644 index 0000000..09d6631 --- /dev/null +++ b/content/drafts/laser-2.md @@ -0,0 +1,30 @@ +Title: Laser 2 +Date: 2017-12-22 15:00 +Category: other +Tags: not-a-transition, lasers +Status: draft + +I got my second laser treatment on Tuesday! This in the evening after pleading guilty in the morning to one count of missing registration and one count of missing insurance in _The People of the State of "Oregon" vs. "Mark T. Saotome-Westlake"_ (a sobering reminder of the importance of sending in one's renewal paperwork on time). + +I took the "MAX" train to the nearest stop and walked to the area where the laser parlor/clinic/salon is, but I was quite early + + + +(... it's just that part of town.) + + + +I bought a paperback of Laura Jane Grace's memoir _Tranny_ (research for the blog, I told myself) and a copy of the November/December issue of _Poets & Writers_ ([professional development](/2017/Nov/the-blockhead/) for the blog, I told myself). + + +laser blade jabbing at my face + + +"Worth it," I said. + +She asked me to rate the pain from one to ten. + +["Two,"](TODO: link XKCD on this) I said. + + +I fear that it's _still_ going to take a number of further sessions to _really_ make a dent in my beard density. But soon, _soon_ ... ! (To be continued 24 January 2018) diff --git a/content/drafts/product-review-faceapp.md b/content/drafts/product-review-faceapp.md index e5cebef..35a162f 100644 --- a/content/drafts/product-review-faceapp.md +++ b/content/drafts/product-review-faceapp.md @@ -10,9 +10,22 @@ Available for both Android and iOS, FaceApp wields the power of modern neural-ne Most of these are pretty boring, honestly. So you can see (a machine-learning algorithm's conception of) what you (or a friend, celebrity, _&c._) would look like if you (respectively they) were older, or younger. It's very technically impressive, of course, and good for a few minutes' amusement, but hardly anything to write home or blog about, let alone _uniquely best piece of software in the world_ material. -But! _There's a "Female" filter._ +Except! _There's a "Female" filter._ + +Non-autogynephilic readers may not fully appreciate the gravity of this. Suffice it to say that for a man who's fantasized about being female nearly every day of his life for the past sixteen years— + + +_transvestite_ or _crossdresser_, for two reasons. + +Firstly, it's not about the clothes. + + +Women with short hair, women who wear masculine clothing are still, noticeably, female— + +—and thus, still the target of gynephilic male desire and autogynephilic male envy. + +Secondly, crossdressing doesn't actually work. -Non-autogynephilic readers may not fully appreciate the gravity of this. diff --git a/notes/post_ideas.txt b/notes/post_ideas.txt index cd08b06..0910659 100644 --- a/notes/post_ideas.txt +++ b/notes/post_ideas.txt @@ -1,11 +1,10 @@ -MAIN SEQUENCE (16)— +MAIN SEQUENCE (15)— There's a Land That I See; Or, The Spirit of Intervention Don't Negotiate With Terrorist Memeplexes; Or, ... The View From Nowhere Q Time Travel Isn't Real; Or, Yes, the Only Real Trans Woman Is a Transitioned Trans Woman Q As Well for a Sheep as a Lamb; Or, Charity, Objectivity, and ... Q An Infovist's Advisory; Or, Standing Athwart History ... -Q This Is Worth a Fight _ Stereotypes, Models, and Cognition _ The Neglect of Probability Fallacy; Or, You Do Not Have an Intersex Condition Q Simple Models Plus Noise Are Better Than Pretending Not to Have a Model @@ -25,12 +24,12 @@ Q Book Review: Nevada Q Memoirs of My Recent Madness, Part II: Friendship Survived Imperfect Trait Measurements Regress to the Mean Q The Gender Czar's Compromise + +NON-SEQUENCE B (16)— Threnody for the Transhumanism of My Youth of course trans genders are less natural; that's the entire fucking point Lies to Cis People Are, Unfortunately, Still Lies People Really Don't Know Why They Do Things - -NON-SEQUENCE B (12)— Q I Want to See You Be Brave Passing Is Legitimacy, Legitimacy Is Passing All Men Benefit From Patriarchy @@ -42,11 +41,12 @@ on the poor literary quality of TG captions go back to east bay tg club night? The Elephant in the Brain http://www.overcomingbias.com/2017/12/join-the-debate.html Product Review: Glamour Boutique's Vee-String Bladder +Q This Is Worth a Fight FICTION QUEUE (6)— -Blindspot -Friendship Practices of ... Blame Me for Trying +Friendship Practices of ... "Love Like You" +Blindspot story of Gina and Vern selected for GNC "I'm a traitor to my people," Mark thinks, as ... diff --git a/notes/speculative_scheduling.txt b/notes/speculative_scheduling.txt index 5963c92..6efa034 100644 --- a/notes/speculative_scheduling.txt +++ b/notes/speculative_scheduling.txt @@ -1,38 +1,35 @@ -2017 Week 51 -Laser 2 -There's a Land That I See; Or, The Spirit of Intervention +22 _ Laser 2 +23 S There's a Land That I See; Or, The Spirit of Intervention +24 _ Product Review: FaceApp +26 S Don't Negotiate With Terrorist Memeplexes +27 _ Interlude XII (four lights) +28 S The View From Nowhere +29 _ Blame Me for Trying -2017 Week 52 -Don't Negotiate With Terrorist Memeplexes -Interlude XII (four lights) -The View From Nowhere -Faster Than Science (Transgender Edition) -Q Time Travel Isn't Real; Or, Yes, the Only Real Trans Woman Is a Transitioned Trans Woman -Product Review: FaceApp 2018 Week 1 +S Time Travel Isn't Real; Or, Yes, the Only Real Trans Woman Is a Transitioned Trans Woman +31 _ Faster Than Science (Transgender Edition) Q As Well for a Sheep as a Lamb; Or, Charity, Objectivity, and ... Q Memoirs of My Recent Madness, Part II: Friendship Survived Q Book Review: Nevada -Q An Infovist's Advisory; Or, Standing Athwart History ... -An Epistolary Story About Preference Falsification 2018 Week 2 -Blame Me for Trying -Q This Is Worth a Fight +Q An Infovist's Advisory; Or, Standing Athwart History ... _ Stereotypes, Models, and Cognition Imperfect Trait Measurements Regress to the Mean +An Epistolary Story About Preference Falsification 2018 Week 3 Friendship Practices of the Secret-Sharing Plain Speech Valley Squirrels _ The Neglect of Probability Fallacy; Or, You Do Not Have an Intersex Condition Q The Gender Czar's Compromise -Lies to Cis People Are, Unfortunately, Still Lies 2018 Week 4 Q Simple Models Plus Noise Are Better Than Pretending Not to Have a Model Falsifiability and What We Expect Not to See * Mary's Room +Laser 3 2018 Week 5 Q The Hand I Was Dealt